The Weekend

Day 3

Dear Diet Diary,

How do you keep a diet on the weekend? I ask that question in total seriousness. With work there's a schedule. I know when my chance to eat will be and there is less chance that I'll have bad snacks because I'm not at my own house with my own junk food. But here, at my house, all I want to do is eat! I want the perogies and ice cream in the freezer and the cookies in the cabinet, I want the coke that's sitting on the counter and the chocolate on the shelf. And Cheez-Its. I want all the Cheez-Its...I need to stop.

To get serious for a minute, dieting is hard. I know that anyone reading this already knows that but to really have to fight the cravings is tough and I find myself thinking that I have plenty of time to lose and I can afford to be a slacker one day. I think more than the physical challenge, losing weight is a mental challenge. It's all about fighting my brain and how it's telling me that I need those snacks, those fries, the candy, the meatball, the bite of pasta or just a piece of a cookie. I'm making light of it but its a weird feeling.  I feel bad about wanting to eat because there's this huge feeling now of being fat and wanting to eat what I want makes me feel terrible. And hearing people talk about their own weight loss journey or journey to being healthier also makes me a little sad. Its a reminder that I am too lackadaisical and makes me think this is just another thing to fail at (though, there is literally no room for failure in that dress).

I'm sorry I'm so whiny.

All that to say, this weekend has not been good for any weight loss. I won't go into the details of what I ate because nothing was good. Well, it was all good. It was amazing, but not the right choices on a diet. I did eat well this morning and have kept drinking water, which I was proud of. But meet the ruiner of all diets...

Olive Garden. I ate maybe 5 bites of this because of the bread and salad and cheese dip that I ate first. Shame. 

SIDE NOTE:

All this weekend festivities are not a normal thing. Halie has been visiting this summer and is leaving tomorrow to go back to Alabama. We've had a mini goodbye tour.