Warm Fuzzies

Both of these are about Kurt. 

16. Yesterday several of us went to Megan's to help set up the new baby bed and move her furniture around. I had to leave to go get my hair cut and when I came back I found out that Kurt had spent the afternoon outside with Marley. He said they played on the swings and the trampoline and she ordered him about, he followed her but mainly, he gave her the opportunity to play outside. 

I think there is always this romantic idea of men taking care of kids. And I get it. But more than anything, knowing that Kurt took care of my family made me love him more. It's playing with Marley, building Oliver's baby bed and helping Megan do housework that give me the warm fuzzies. I find his desire to know more about kids and how to take care of them so endearing. 

17. This one is about the hair cut. I took a bit of a risk and cut my bangs. I felt nervous, especially for Kurt's reaction. 

He continues to blow me away. 

He has made clear not only that he likes them, but that they look nice on me. I find compliments hard to accept, it's been a new development for me. It makes me sad that I can't see myself the way others see me. Hearing the compliments show me more than ever that I don't see good in myself. At first I wrote "Receiving the compliments..." but am I really receiving them? No. I'm only hearing them. I'm working to actually receive and accept his compliments, to try to see myself the way he does. 

Taken day of the bang cut.